I wrote a whole post on Friday, put my heart on my sleeve, mysteriously it was deleted! Hmmm, maybe that much emotion just wasn’t supposed to be posted in a public forum. The day actually felt like a nightmare. I awoke to find my expensive progressive glasses broken right in half. I let out an instant cry. Soon realized that was pointless. Costco then informs me those frames were deleted December 2007. Oh great, December is still haunting me! Remember that’s when my car broke down. Finally got it fixed just over a week ago. Now this! I love those glasses too!They were my 50th birthday gift from my daughter. Who is not impressed, and that's putting it mildly! I’d hoped I could transfer my lenses into new frames. They had a easy clip sunglasses that I couldn't live without! No makeup, hop in the car...look decent! Right in half, at the bridge I tell ya! It's sounding like I won't be able to get new ones.
Am I being punished for an over indulgence a week ago! I spied two pieces of silver jewelry that I fell in love with. Yes, the gaga kind of boy love!! Glitzy allure. And they had amethysts in them too….I walked away a few times…I really did. But they called my name every so sweetly….Sheeeewwwwiee. yes they used that baby talk mother ease with me…,,,,weeee’reeee not that expeeeeensive….buuuuuyyyy us….we were meant for you and YOU alone. I did it! The guilt is friggin eating me up I tell ya…eating me up!
Seriously it’s not like I buy a lot. Every birthday my brother tosses me a few bucks to spend on myself; I usually buy necessities for the house, or underwear that I need or treat myself to dinner out with a friend. Nothing extravagant…because it’s futile when I need to pay bills, possibly see a dentist. All day I felt like I was in a nightmare and just wished I'd wake up.. it was a fog that would not lift. I was numb…just like the later eight years of my marriage. The anniversary of the ugliest day of my life is coming up in two weeks too. It will be twelve years now …yeah I know lame excuse. Bottom line, I just wanted the pretty pretty purple shiny jewelry. Maybe I'm part crow! Last time I bought shoes, was well over a year ago. Enough excuses…Sherrie did a bad bad thing! Now she has broken glasses.
Another huge expense…I wonder why I keep sabotaging myself. At least this post isn’t as doom and gloom as the last one! At the end of the night