Sunday Scribbling "Always a Never"

A doodle done in an art journal Feb 8th

Sunday Scribbling prompt this week is "Raw"

 My daughter's in crisis, there is nothing I can do, she is raw! Her father is moving to another country. She feels at a complete loss. Knowing she may not see him for a long time, if ever. Because divorce is complicated, and step parents can be very difficult to take.

Often a stoic girl she describes herself as an egg, with a fragile shell, completely soft inside. There has been little regard for her feelings during the process of him moving away. As much as the man doesn't fit the criteria to be my friend, I want him safe and sound for my daughter. So I pray for his safety and happiness. Even though almost everything he does irks me to the core! I wished he'd been a more of  hands on dad. But he had no example and didn't know how. He is a sad man who's missed out on a genuinely amazing child. Sidney Poitier says, " The measure of a man is how he provides for his children" There is not much more I can say. Except I am so sad for my daughter, and my deceased mother who also went through the same. I am so sorry for the ugliness in her life that was no fault of her own. There is no way to rectify any of this....it's just plain awful.

Always a never

A child of divorce

Continuously pounded

By what will never be

Nibbling at crumbs of

Family past

Grappling for resolve

Where there is none

Hanging by a string

Of need

Knowing it will

Swing back and forth

Until it breaks

Dropping them

Into a puddle of dismay

Muddied by mistakes

Not their own

Weighted

By a heavy brick

Of longing,

Misunderstanding,

and deceit

Waiting for atonement

That will never come

Satisfaction that can never be

They stand alone

In a mire of pain

With no comfort

Desperate to move

Forward

Whole!