Some of the family was in denial, not (me). I adjusted my life drastically from living on adrenalin in order to accomplish super mom
After three months of daily hospital visits, very long hours at a time, the family waited in a room to speak to the doctor.
Always a strong woman, mom had declined any more physio therapy knowing she was at the end. She no longer wanted to suffer the pain of walking around when she felt like crap.All but her sister supported her wishes. My aunt somehow figured if she would walk she would recover.
|Mandarin Orange Monday|
When I wasn't working I was cooking, cleaning and doing
everything to be the super woman she raised me to be.
Five years younger my sibling felt even worse. Working as much overtime as he could while taking care of a home and religiously working out. With partying and having a little lady fun like many young men do he had no time for mom either.
It's paid off, and we both have very close intimate relationships with our children and their partners. Relationships we have honed from infancy.
I know that guilt is a energy draining waste of time and useless emotion. It eats up creative space in your mind! I have yet to find a woman who doesn't feel buried by it! I still fall prey to it myself! Guilt is a monster we should all release...
What would you replace your guilt with?