
Why didn't you do it before you left the house?



Sunday Scribblings " Hospital"
This may be a touch dry, but it is a little history,
in the best order that I can remember it.
Hospital History
Born in one
To a woman five feet tall,
One hundred three pounds
She hiked her skirt on
A Completely svelte body
Immediately after my birth
I was back at two
With pneumonia
Several return bouts
Adenoids were removed
At three years old
Then again at five
Along with tonsils
Then in my eighth year
Close to death
Exploratory surgery
Reveals
A burst appendix
Fifteen years later
A slip at work,
Caste for torn ligaments
Seven years pass
Twenty two hours
In a serene birthing room
Catastrophic pain
Wanting to die
My daughter is born
And I hemorrhage.
Next day
I set my hair
Prepared for motherhood
Following six weeks
In palliative care
My dad passes
Five years later
Palliative care again
I sit a vigil daily
For hours
Sometimes over night
Three months later
In the heat of the summer
She dies
Leaving me
A Thirty five year old
Orphan
Grey haired stranger
I scarcely recognize you.
Your once handsome pretty boy face
wearing the weather of your years.
I’m staring hard beyond your swollen slits
of instability.
To see if you’re still in there
behind the coffee stained teeth, wrinkles
and unnatural photo face.
“Who are you now?” I wonder,
not actually giving a damn
You stole my youth,
I let you.
If only I’d run sooner…………
But wait,
The treasure you left me
made it all worth while.
Man of little effort,
a character flaw
that followed you
through divorce
fatherhood
into old age.
You look so much older
than your dad did at your age.
Some may still see you as attractive.
I trace your face, knowing the real you
the generous, yet stingy man.
Oxymoron man,
man who abandoned his most
precious responsibility.
Oh, but you will be forgiven,
released from your past follies.
Time will wax you.
Charm will rescue you.
We had everything and nothing.
We lived a good life then,
separate, together.
Quite attentive,
I was a good consort,
"or was I?"
Sometimes I’ll observe an incident in life that I have absolutely no jurisdiction over. In frustration I’ll just sit back and peck out a poem. As is true with life in general, people may start traveling one path, when conflict forces them off their intended road. Or they become enlightened and break off into a new direction. Either way I silently watch in angst as they avoid the inevitable choice, to stave off the lurking pain. Despite the fact this poem is written about one particular situation it applies generically to a few unrelated circumstances at this juncture!
No Choice
Broken down vehicle
Cracked at the core
Broken down sentiments
Severed the allure
Broken down conduct
Aiming for the crash
Broken down interior
Extracting the trash
Broken down conclusions
Lesions from the wreck
Broken down appetite
Left with just a speck
Broken down assurances
History less congealed
Broken down fortitude
Prospects now repealed
You have but one choice
Rejoice, and find your voice
Grow
Grow up, grow out
Grow together, grow apart
Grow intellect, grow savvy
Grow courteous, grow content
Grow wise, Grow warm,
Grow brave, grow mature
Grow joy, grow humor
Grow harmony, grow calm
Grow acceptance, Grow kind,
Grow thankful, grow generous
Grow loyal, grow faith
Grow love, grow hope
Grow imaginative, grow humble
Grow passion, grow vision
Grow heaven in your midst
Queens Subjects
As the Queen of hearts for just one day
I’d mute the adults, while the children play
I’d present a throne speech, to all single fathers and mothers
Inform them that children have seniority above all others
I’d parade distressed kids in droves upon my stage
Let them vent with passion, even endorse their rage
About sexual abuse, violence, bullying and neglect
Substance misuse,and emotions guardians fail to detect
I’d force parents to listen without a chance to respond
Hoping new dedication would coerce old thoughts to abscond
Adults would be exposed to current lyrics the full day long
Then quizzed about everything youth knows to be wrong
I'd trust parents would be enlightened and able to concur
That the songs being sung reflect a world that’s obscure
I’d compel folks to atone by serving their children’s needs
Reminding them to thwart their plans when self-interest impedes
To live as though under a microscope of detection
Where all their actions are emulated in their child’s reflection
One free pass of forgiveness liable parents could conceive
Upon restitution of stability and a refuge, where children can believe
Oh but I am the eccentric Queen of numerous extreme dreams
My very first act is to hush our turbulent worlds screams!
I’ve witnessed Liquor take hold of loved ones wreaking havoc on their lives. I wrote this poem about alcohol abuse. It seems no matter what issues you cover up with booze; they still remain after the intoxication.
For a week or two the smoke is clear
Then like a well cured kindling
It ignites with the spark of a match
Poof, life is fired up with a roar
Rotten wood hides amongst the embers
Flammable hollow pieces quickly disappear
Spilling soot and ashes in it’s midst
Dense heavy moist pieces
Survive amongst the cinders
Poked and prodded
Still they refuse to light
Refusing even the slow burn
Charred and left behind
Uglier in the daylight
Waiting to dry out
Until the next fire